It's Sydney

WHAT ILL NEVER UNDERSTAND IS THAT HOW CAN YOU CALL YOURSELF MY FRIEND THAT IF YOU HAVE A ISSUE OR PROBLEM YOU CANT SPEAK YOUR MIND ABOUT IT. YOU RATHER NOT TALK TO ME OR YOU WILL TALK ABOUT ME TO SOMEONE ELSE WHEN IM NOT AROUND. YOU CLAIM TO BE SO REAL WHEN I APPROACH YOU ABOUT THE SITUATION ALL YOU SAY IS THAT YOUR NOT MAD ABOUT ANYTHING BUT ITS CLEARLY OBVIOUS YOU ARE. AND A REAL FRIEND BELIEVES YOU WHEN YOU SAY YOU DIDN’T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT SOMETHING YOU TELL THEM OR WOULD ATLEAST SAY WHAT THE PROBLEM IS TO YOUR FACE. I HATE BITCHES TO THE FULLEST. IT YOUR HAVE A PROBLEM SAY IT DONT HIDE IT!!

Don’t forget I know what you look ed like when you first got here. I was cool with you before you bad shit. Don’t all of a sudden start acting brand new when you get shit.

The more I’m at school the more I’m starting to regret some of the decisions I’ve made.   The people who call themselves my “friend” treat me like I’m not their or I’ve done them some great wrong.  All i can do is re-evaluate the people I’m around because the people who call themselves your friends i realize really aren’t.  You say yo are so real but at the end of the day you aren’t because you cant open your mouth and say what the problem is.  You may say it to someone else but you have yet to open your mouth and say it to me.  I probably shouldn’t of moved into the apartment with y’all, but i made the decision so i have to be a grown woman about it and take it as it is.  

It is so hard to be away from the person you love and the people you love for so long. Some people would call it growing up but being alone is not growing up. I can’t wait till I can be in his arms again and be around family. I miss it so much but I have to go far to get my education.

Wonder what ill be one day? Wonder if Im going to become the doctor Im striving to be? Will i amount to the women i know i can be? Who will i marry?? These are some things you contemplate being in college. Its alot to take on. But i plan to do it will grace and commitment.

Im tired of being neglected by this dude. It could be karma but I’ve never put my all in a relationship like this. Im starting to rethink this whole relationship but at the same time I love him. But he don’t understand a good thing when its in his face. Im the best he’s ever had and its time for him to realize that.